Such a big update

Hello, hello, hello! =] Okay, so I know that I was going to post an update every Sunday, but there has seriously been a lot that has been going on in our lives. Neil got laid off from work for about a month. We both seriously thought that we were going to be homeless, but we were able to make it through and Neil got picked up for another job! Then on April 23rd, I found out that we are expecting baby #4! It was a total shocker that's for sure lol I am due December 26th, 2012. I started having contractions at 9.5 weeks and are still having them to this day =[ trust me when I say that I get like no sleep at all!! There are days that they get so bad that I end up in the emergency room, but I will talk more about that a little later on in the update.

So, Neil got laid off from his job, due to lack of work that was coming in. He was on the out of work list for about a month before he was finally picked up for something, but he then lost that job because he missed two days of work. One day was because Aidan ended up being admitted into the hospital due to an intestinal virus that he had and the other day was due to the fact that Neil had to take me to the emergency room because the on call dr at my dr's office thought that there was something wrong with my appendix, we didn't get out of the emergency room until 2 in the morning and he was supposed to get up for work at 5am...there was no way that he was going to be able to do that. I think that it's stupid, because they said that he was a very good worker and everything. But this is one reason why I hate his line of work. They can lay him off at anytime and we don't have money saved up in case he gets laid off and some people just don't understand why. Um we are living out of a motel, that right there pretty much takes up a lot of Neil's paychecks. Even though I don't like the line of work that Neil is doing, it's better then nothing and I am going to support him in any job that he takes.

So as I said before, we found out that we are pregnant with baby #4, which came as a really big shocker to us. See a few years ago I was told by my dr that I was not going to be able to have anymore kids. The IUD that I had in managed to move and lodged itself into my cervix. Well since that happened, I started getting ovarian cysts like crazy and I have already had a big problem with them since I was 13. In August of 2011, I found out that I was pregnant the same day that I ended up having a miscarriage. Actually the miscarriage is how I found out that I was pregnant. That just totally crushed me right there. Neil and I had pretty much come to terms with the fact that we were probably never going to have another baby and we were okay with that. We decided that once we were on our feet and more stable that we would go ahead and look into the whole adoption process and look into adopting a little baby girl. Well I decided that I wanted to get the IUD put back in, what more could it do towards damage right? I couldn't stand my periods anymore, they were horrible, so I knew that the IUD would stop them. So I went in to my dr's appt, thinking that they would put the IUD in right then and there. Nope, I was totally wrong. She wanted me to wait till I got my period before they did anything. They were going to do a pregnancy test right there, but I told them that I didn't need to do one because I just took one a few days ago and it was negative.

So I was told that I needed to wait for my period to start and when it did to call the dr's office and get in there and they will put the IUD in. Well the day that my period was due came and went, okay, no big deal, that's happened before. But all of a sudden we were like 5 days into not getting a period. With my 3 boys, I kind of knew that I was pregnant and something was always telling me to take a test and that I was pregnant, but this time around, that wasn't the case. I actually had no idea that I was pregnant. I did have the sore boobs, but I just kind of brushed that off because that would always happen to me from time to time. One day on our way home, I told Neil that we needed to stop off at the Dollar Tree and I needed to go and get a pregnancy test. We came home and while he was in the shower, I went in and took the test, there was no way that I was going to be able to wait till morning to take the test. Within seconds we ended up with a BFP!! I just sat there on the toilet not knowing what to think or even how to feel. Neil was in utter shock as well lol but after we had like the first 3 ultrasounds, it finally kicked in that we are having another baby =]

I have been asked a few times if we are having twins, because even though I am only 14 weeks along, I am showing and waddling like a duck lol At first I thought that I could be carrying twins, since twins and triplets run on my dad's side of the family big time, but after my first trip to the emergency room and them doing an ultrasound, we saw only one baby. I don't know what I would do if we were having twins though lol I would probably freak out a bit hahaha This baby is really a blessing to us, especially knowing that we wouldn't be able to have anymore children. I know that God gave us this baby for a reason and I can't wait to meet our precious lil bundle of joy.

Things between Neil and I have been pretty rocky still. I honestly don't know what more I can do to help our relationship out. There are days when I just want to run out the door and say screw it, I'm done. But I am not the type of person to just sit back and not try to work on things. Right now my biggest thing is that he is getting after to kids about not stressing me out, when in fact he is doing it as well. When I try telling him something, he will start to argue with me about it, like that is seriously going to help my situation. I understand that he is stressed out, especially since he is the one who is doing everything around here as well as taking care of the kids, myself and working 10 hour days. But even when he gets frustrated with something or someone, he gets this major attitude and starts going off, like that is going to help me in my situation.